Breakdown

Today has not been a good day.  I had my first post-referral breakdown.  Now that we "know" our little girl, it seems very hard to wait until July/August to bring her home.  I was looking at her pictures and crying.  People had told me this would happen, but the feeling of helplessness that I have right now is oppressive.  I cannot do anything to speed our paperwork through the process and that is very frustrating.  I'm trying to remember that God's timing is perfect, and that He has planned this adoption for us since the beginning of time.